September: NICU Awareness Month
September is NICU Awareness Month, so I’ve decided to share a video of Momo’s graduation day!
Born at 29 weeks, Mohsen spent 6 weeks at the NICU. He graduated on 23/12/17, just in time for Christmas, weighing 2kg & 14 days apnea-free! This was the scariest day of my life. No one talks about this; about leaving the NICU..
When my water broke at 27 weeks I had no concept of baby. I thought perhaps I would miscarry, but it didn’t scare me. Every night at the NICU, I felt he was being taken care of by the best in the region & that helped curb my fears. Sure, there were scary days, but NOTHING can compare to the day we had to take him home. If you listen closely you’ll hear me suggest bringing him straight back up! 😂
There was a strange comfort in hearing his monitor beep & watching his oxygen levels on a screen. Daily weigh-ins gave me security. Then suddenly he’s all ours. We have to take him home, with no monitors, no nurse, no tubes, nothing. Just Momo.
Safe to say I didn’t sleep for weeks. He slept well, of course; he has his dad’s genes ☺️🤷🏻♀️ but I couldn’t close my eyes. I would watch to make sure his little chest was moving up and down & wonder when I would stop worrying. I obsessed that he had no lashes & was cross eyed. I devised a system to weigh him every morning (which made me crazy). Nothing could have ever prepared me for this journey. NICU doesn’t always have a happy ending & we are blessed Momo was such a fighter.
For NICU parents, here’s my two cents:
Trust the process & learn to accept your fate. It’s not what you would have chosen, granted, but you get to watch a little miracle grow outside of your body & that’s a true blessing. Trust your nurses; they really will give you everything they’ve got when they know you’re on the same team. Love your baby & celebrate him every day, no matter how hard that is to do over the beeps & tubes & all the stress. Hold him & practice kangaroo care whenever you can. Holding your baby is medicine; your love will heal.
So here’s to the heroes that are NICU babies & the patient parents that help them on their journey; it gets better, I promise 💜